Missing a friend

 What makes me so angry? An incident happened today and it's just the same theme all over again. Something that makes me feel like hiding myself in a closet or just screaming out really loud - of course with a pillow covering my mouth. 

I hate myself in these times as I embarrass everyone. I will act in a way - a very emotional way and then have teary eyes and have a ache in my head which would just not go. And if someone asks me why am I acting that way or what I want, I would just not have any answer. 

What do I really want? What does anyone like me want from life?

I guess I feel lonely. I long for friendship and company. I really miss the days in YIF when Simran and I or / and Turam used to just sit anywhere at any time and talk about anything. I miss Simi and mine deep and light talks about life. 

I guess what I miss is - A friend.