Beauty lies in eyes of the beholder?

I was always curious about how certain phrases may have been formed like what does it even mean to say that beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder after all. But if you think about it, it’s all derived from human nature. 

Talking about human nature, I'd always thought I'm this very independent woman and whatever anyone may think about me, my looks doesn't matter. I even don't iron my clothes and wear because hey! who cares what anyone thinks as long as I'm comfortable. But almost every time this impression is put to test, it gets torn apart into pieces - often hard to gather together! 

I'm a person who seeks appreciation, words of reassurance, reconfirmation help me towards satisfaction in my decisions. This is very human. Also, I've realised that I'm so much more impacted by the reactions of familia than others. This is very human too. 

One such time my strength (for lack of better word) has been tested was when I decided to get all my hair out and go for a shaved head look. Being a cancer patient can be hard somedays especially when it comes to losing hair. Even though I'd gotten my hair chopped pixie, still I could see tons of hair come off in my hand as if they were the dust which gets off with the shampoo. (change). Every-time I would take off the very sweaty scarf I'd wrapped around, I would see it full of hair - long and short. It was too much to care and get stressed about, especially with a new born around, so I decided to go under the razor and get it all out. I wanted to surprise my husband over the lunch I'd planned with him and Oh Boy! was he shocked. His reaction sent chills down my bones and I felt so disappointed. 

Suddenly, the beauty I could see in my shaved head was going off. While having lunch, I felt the need to put on the scarf back thinking it was too much for him. It was then that I realised that beauty does lie in the eyes of the beholder.